Pregnancy : 20 Weeks – Hormones & Emotions
Yes, I’m in my 20th week now and I’m HALF WAY THERE!
Well, actually if labour comes early (ie. Anya was born in week 38, and Vai was in week 37.5), then I’m LESS than half way there!
Anyway.
Things have been SO much better these days. My energy is more or less pretty good. Minimal gagging. No sleeping issues. I’m able to cook, etc.
But, these past few days, I notice I’m somehow … more emotional.
No, I know it’s NOT because I’m facing problems adjusting to the new daily routine (read: Waking up at 6am to get Anya ready for school, etc)
And, I know it’s also NOT because I’m worried about the baby’s development, or how my relationship with hubby will be like with three kids in the family, etc.
Hmm. I guess there were just times when I felt … overwhelmed with emotions.
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Last Saturday for example, I raised my voice and scolded Anya. I was irritated and frustrated with her reaction towards something. I felt helpless as a parent.
That very same night, I broke down and cried as I listened to both kids giggling in the other room when my husband told them their bedtime story.
I felt guilty for being impatient towards Anya earlier that day.
I felt like I wasn’t a good mother.
I felt like I should’ve spent my day with my two kids better throughout that day.
(I was feeling blue since morning, and was easily irritated by little happenings around me. So rather than uttering unnecessarily unhappy words, I chose to stay quieter throughout the day)
That night, as I lay in bed, I just felt like crying. And I cried for a good 10 mins or so.
Silly and irrational, some may think. But if you ask me, I think it’s good (and somewhat necessary) to just let it out in a good cry than suppressing the feeling inside.
[I know it’s basically linked to my pregnancy. These hormonal changes and all. Well, I’m just glad that it doesn’t happen to me too often so far]
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Anyway.
I felt ‘normal’ again the next morning. And I really thanked God for that because I know how annoying things can be when you have a grumpy and moody pregnant mommy and wife around you.
And, I thank God too for the strength (and health, and joy and everything) given to me over these past 20 weeks! To know that our baby’s growing well inside is truly amazing too!
Ah. Can’t wait to see how the second half of my pregnancy journey turns out!
[Click HERE to follow baby no. 3’s weekly pregnancy journal]
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Check out these links to read more on pregnancy hormones:
>> Guide to Pregnancy Hormones (www.whattoexpect.com)
>> Mood swings during Pregnancy (www.babycenter.com)
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Hi Ing,
Thanks for sharing how it was for you when you had baby no.3 too! (how are things so far btw, with three kiddos in the family?)
I was speaking with my doc just a few days ago, and he told us (me and hubby) how it was totally normal to go through such emotional rollercoasters. I ‘know’ how it’s caused by hormones and all, but hearing it from the doc and friends does make it somewhat better 🙂
Thanks again Ing for the encouraging note.
Hi Sis,
Thanks ya for the encouraging note. And you’re definitely NOT at the bottom of the rank (just like how I’m not worthy to be at the top of the rank).
We’re on the same boat actually … trying to do our best in being the kind of parents God wants us to be. Let’s keep on encouraging each other ya …
Have a nice weekend, sis!
Hi Wei,
Thanks for sharing with me how your pregnancy goes so far! You’re about a month away, btw! Hope all goes really well for you and baby yeah!
(and to ease any ‘potential fear’, I usually don’t think about the labour day, hehe … I do however read as much as I can about what happens during labour. Personally, when I ‘know the subject’ better, I feel more at ease when it actually takes place 🙂
I totally understand how that feels. I was pregnant with our no.3 last year and I can’t count the number of times my tears were triggered by the slightest things. Many times, I was also easily irritated by my 2 older kids and snapped at them more than I had wanted. I felt so bad afterwards too and would cry. Like what you’ve mentioned, I think it’s really those hormones. Hang in there! You’re on the way to meeting your lovely baby. And I think you are a very great and inspiring mother.
Le, if I am to rank the bestest mothers out of all my friends who are mothers, you’ll be rank #1 so if you feel that you’re a bad mother, I dunno what that makes of me
Hang in there, Le!!!! I know it’s the hormone thing and it’s playing up on you now emotionally. But if that makes you feel that you’re a bad mother, please think of me =) cos I’m at the very bottom of the rank
Thanks for sharing. It’s normal to feel that way I suppose, this hormones thing is hard to avoid, not using that as an excuse, but I guess that just how the pregnancy body works!
I’m on my 34weeks right now and like you, I thank God for relatively smooth pregnancy, a supportive, caring, loving & wonderful husband. A growing baby inside my tummy 😀
Just not looking forward to the pain of the labour haha!
Anyway, all the best with the rest of your pregnancy!